I love God. He is my Creator, my Father, my Savior, my Friend, my Everything. "God + Nothing = Everything," as Pastor Luis says. Why then, do I struggle with spending focused time with God? Am I putting God in a box? I want to say I'm not, but I know I do. I tell myself, if you are going to spend time with God, you must do it in the morning before work. I'll read one chapter and maybe write a prayer in my prayer journal. Every morning before work turns into every other day, and then maybe once or twice a week. If I don't have anything going on in the evenings, which is rare, I enjoy spending my time in front of the TV, watching shows on Netflix, or my guilty pleasure, the Bachelor. What is wrong with me? I think I desire God, but do my actions show that I really do? How do I gain discipline with reading my Bible and talking to God? I need to set aside more time for God and His word. It needs to become routine in my life. I want to be more knowledgeable and carry the wisdom that my peers at Bible study seem to have. I want to please God so badly. He has given me life, and life to the full! He gave me an incredible husband; He placed us in a beautiful state to live; He continually provides me with work, no matter where I live; He planned the birth of my niece perfectly so that I could see her grow up during these young precious months and years while we live in Arizona; He gave us both wonderful families; He provided a church home with friends and ministry opportunities; He continually helps Jordan on his exams and in his rotations; We can do nothing without God. I give all credit to Him.
Lord, help me to focus on my relationship with you. Help me to set goals for myself in reading your word. Help me to be an encouraging wife to Jordan. Help me to lover others at all times. God, you are my everything, I trust you, I love you, I believe in You.
"For truly, I say to you,
if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this
mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will
be impossible for you.”
--Matthew 17:30 (ESV)